And then someday someone sweeps into your territory and surreptitiously your heart and mind involve..
then your eyes see him the way you have never seen anyone before and you know...
Its just meant to be "you and me" ♥♥

Fantasy!

On the #highest roof top, 

I wish to sit at the #highest rail today;

So I may have my time with the Moon,

Tell him that his friendship with me is a boon.

He knows of my secrets and the tides I have been through.

He's walked me out of the maze when I was clueless and blue.

I wish to see him today a little close;

Tell tales of how his friendship to me is a sweet medicinal dose.

He borrows the light from the gleaming Sun

Illuminates life-travelers crude run.

He is 'The Charmer' and 'The Love Messenger'

The 'Goddess of Love' shines on with him and stir.

He travels to keep up with his friends

Spreads light in the darkest hours.

And when he doesn't show up, lets the cloud cover him up;

He sacrifices his time to let the cloud weep for it's "True Love"!

I wish to stay up all night today and speak to him all the while.

No, it isn't the darkest night of my life

But I want to tell him that since my childhood he had the explanations to my inquisitiveness and that I'm still curious.

That no matter what, I have always known, he's there beside..

Oh Moon! I sometimes miss you in those vibrant dry-walls

I think about the way you show up each-day before I doze off

It raises my desire for a window above my bed, all the more

So always I could pass the darkness inside the beaming canopy of your tender love. 

(#Hoping)

As I talk to you today in the presence of a billion stars

A star may go shooting to guard my passion and grant me what I wish for. 

I'm LO-sing now..

Is there a soul who could touch my soul
Put, a smile on my lips and greet back.
I wonder if there's someone who sweep, me off my feet
Fast, beats my heart and I am loved back.

For I'm LO-sing now--
I feel un-inspired and (think) the, look is insipid
And if I'm not ta-ken back; that may be an end of it..

Could there be a feeling that stays for eternity
Down, to the chin my tears pass and each-time; I get a hug back
I muse on if I should be proud of who I am
Unthoughtful, context of my speech but someone still gets me through and pats my back.

For I'm LO-sing now--
I smell soggy and (think) I work as a demotivationalizer.
And I'm afraid If I'm not taken back; that could be an end of it..

For I'm LO-sing now--
I am all over the place, everywhere
I don't really see sunshine now and I can't hold on; I can't track my way back to it........


*commas are pauses.
*hum it in a melody..

A happy love or A withered love story..

She felt the chill and breathed warmth

They came so close and in that first kiss,he had her!

She knew of his mistress but then she loved him too

She knew it wont be hers- the love that her heart cultivated so easily

Like that magical sleep from those bedtime stories.

So she befriended him and wrapped her love under the blood sheets
Moments came in when she found it difficult to sustain herself

When that subdued craving rose like a tornado-Tossing the sanity and oozing out every ounce of unspoken love
Sometimes the sheets unfolded to reveal the arcs in her eyes

She was loosing herself to someone she should not...

She sat and thought about mysteries of life--

About the multiple encounter with the strangers and about those connections upon the dilation of pupil 

And in between a daunting experience, taking a toll through the racing of the heart leaving souls victimized!

Why is it so that Love is invincible but Peace is unreachable

That it's the Hope that is endurable but still People are resistant. And She sighed!

She constantly juggled between white and black

But she had learnt in the past that we have one life

She loved her human form, She had eternal faith in her God

And so she coded her love, put on a smile bright

She had a gift of lighting hearts, she knew how to make things right..

So she settled on grey and bartered the practical with the surreal..

She lived all moments that came by her side 

And made a pact with her god that she wont cross the practical after living- god's granted surreal times..

The going was good; it felt as if it is like forever.

Up until that day when she made a mistake and transverse the prohibited...

The pact was broken and so was she--- 

she was wrecked like a ship...smashed like a ball,,,,

penniless like poor...speechless like dumb

...soaked like a dying seed .still like a statue..

She fell like a shooting star...Hollow!

Paralysed--the whole body responds to the memory part of the brain..

she knew she was very ill..

she was suffering a heartbreak......

She shackled herself and turned a deaf

She wept and wept...kept to herself!

..........................................................................................................................................................

He loved her or he didn't 

He was never asked and never did he tell

They had something very intense

But they were different

and so were unpredictable

when he giggled, she thought he mocked

and when she adored, he thought it is just fine

When he spoke, she would shut her

and when he wanted her to speak, she spoke of emotions very weak

Quiet strangely they did not notice that behind their differences lay a similar soul

They hid their love in their laughter and words

They put their egos without a lid

They would fight and by turn would take their chance of solidifying

Both feared but never missed to kiss

And even after hundred days of aloofness, they would sync in a blink..

My pen is not finished yet...thoughts are bumping

But he-she for now are apart and not talking

So I leave it here...to see is it a happy love or an approaching end of a withered love story..?

Your Long Quest Ends -- discovering lifetime series to me, yet it is incomplete!

As I walked in, You were there, you sat with a zeroed expression and gave a stoned impression. You made me curious....
As you looked at me straight into the eyes; the sands of time unsettled an array of colors from the otherwise outwardly neat painted ground. You gave me shivers...

A little halt; then I moved towards you...

And your face bears strange resemblance to somebody very close I know and your eyes unraveled the mystery and spoke of bereavement.Oh! I could read it clear.
That sensational quiver proposed me many vague thoughts, seemingly formed by the brain imagery. But look here, a voice from my head croaked, he is not a stranger, he is the one from your dream. My eyes following instructions now saw the color hues, suggesting a strong connection between us as if you were just lost in time and finally u made it to me.

A long pause; then you said..

And when you spoke, the wind in your voice brought reminiscences of the love that existed, to carry away the mist and reveal the colors that existed, to hum the melody of our love songs.
Those flashes got me teary and I could picture us together, sketch mine hand in yours, speak about your love for me....all that we had, for why you traveled to me.

For a moment I looked away; your hand called me gently..

And as you touched, words were not needed any longer for your sentient heart commingled with the innocent eyes communicated to the energy- making the whole world aware of the wave of rush inside you, of the purity of our souls, of the love so lost, now here for you from the times to lift you up from your falls of the past, of the many lifetimes you spent in search. So I dreamt of you persistently coz you were for real. I was born for you and you were here for me.

As I walk out, the trance vaporize making my soul more aware that meeting you was not an accident, it was to be.You exist with me, always have and someday you will get it all. Let me draw the courage to show you the light of faith, trust and honor which you so beautifully did to me and to the universe in the language of ecstasy.

The Long Quest Ends - yet the canvas is only half painted and I am curious to know if you would be able to paint your part. And what colors would they be? Will you see me?

Your only chance.

Amidst the exasperating crowd, you find a soul bright
holding your ground, holding the 'red' of your belief.

Your heart is involved in here and so you feed your ego
as the tender heart makes you sway, making you weaker.

Weigh them both and if your heart wins, take the only chance
coz a second chance you may never have, may be you are losing all only on the edge of a pop.

Watering your memoir tree with your tears of sorrow, with the sigh of unspoken love
it is a mistake that you cannot undo, it is a crime that has perennial repercussions.

So be loud and be heard for once and as many times
until your love echoes with the same intensity and bequeath a lifetime endurance to you.

I say, "Pick up your chance!".

Light in Her dark

She knows about Him, about the fluorescent ray in Her dark
She wishes not for skies and stars
not Him as a bankroll or any material staff
for She is a poor girl, She has lost Her dear Heart
She finds in Him a mystical array of lights
slightly intimidated by His stare, mostly intrigued by the color hues
She dared to look into His eyes
for He locks Her, She transcends the darkest hours...

Reminiscing about beautiful times gone by and savoring the flavor now if they were then scarfed down due to hunger or choked down due to clingy deadlines!!

This moment was kept aside for cherishing 'delightful memoirs' and now I anticipate the coming times to reveal themselves most engagingly to complete the Saga!!

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

-----------------------------------MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Under The Mistletoe!

It's odd to get stuck on

The intention though, is 'together' we carry on

Oh yes..this time this pain comes as a cost to you

As I'll hold you close under the mistletoe.

Many winters flew in and went out of sight

I couldn't reach you though always sitting alongside

Oh yeah..this time the sun will sparkle the dew

I'll hold you close under the mistletoe.

The works of nature has always been mysterious
It brings blurups whenever it's mischievousness
Oh no..this time the world will pose a statute
As I hold you close under the mistletoe.

All missed moments urge me to make a move
A tender brush, resplendent union, what love, picturesque!

Oh no.you know.you're not bound to stay
But I'll live today, everyday with you under this mistletoe.

The thoughts racing through my mind follow this path of your voice,,,I hear the gospels of love, compassion, patience, perseverance and bravery and I watch my steps maturing at every forward leap.
You teach me about modesty and taking the real walk of pride,,,about surrendering and experiencing real emancipation.
You make me believe that even when times are harsh and relations strained,,,,I got to move all tall with the zeal to win them over.
I love you MAA,,,,I know now I got to let go ego so as to embrace 'myself'!!

And the rain poured!!

Myriad Impressions
with the tinsel decor
kneaded the broken Heart
of the Mistress of Night
Gracing the echos of the Past
abandoning the Loneliness 
She bartered her sleep today
to hem transparent strands
and unlace Romance again!

If Only

If only you would know
how bliss clouds over me
and when crude anger covers it all.

If only you would know
what causes a sudden euphoric draw up
and a momentary blow off in between.

If only you would know
the reason behind my cheerfulness in off season
Although, a consequence of inner warfare all through.

If only you would know
the crux of my spiteful propositions
and my unreadable frenzied standards too.

I know it's hard for you to understand
May be, to you I'm egotistical or a victim of MPD
But if only you would know

I might love and may have loved but with you it is different
I cant convey, I cant keep mum
The much I hate my uncontrollable self.

I am the queen when you are around
A sinking ship when you turn away.
And all these hints breathe in a single space.

You have the password of my heart and the key to my thoughts
You control me and I protect you
But... if only. . . . . . . .

Falling Apart!

When I feel love
When it's apparent, "You and Me"
I get such an adrenalin rush
Like I am the only narration on this earth
Of the beauty and it's beholder
Of the love and 'eternal lovers'.

But as the rain comes down
When clouds of dark surround, 'You and Me"
I feel hollowness insurmountable
Like I have no purpose but to grieve
Over losing you and myself in you
Over the loss and 'lost love'.

It is such a moment of weakness in me
I can do anything for 'You and Me'
I have never known what is falling out of love
Like the water always quenches thirst
You are my breath and elixir of my life
You are my smile and my completeness.

But I should have known
Falling apart, 'You and Me'
Because you can see through me
Like I'm sheltered in your arms. And it was just a dream
I have a broken wing and you have no inkling
I am a falling star, the light is gone and I am fading..

I miss you when you're around
Can it still be 'You and Me'?
Do you love me or you don't?
Like a cipher decodes in further codes
I give up on your words now
But I am afraid to let you go....

I still remember your first words
Never gone never far, 'You and Me'
Do you still feel the same for me?

Maa

You hear my stupid narrations with utmost pleasure
You hold me strong and guard my fall
You take my irksome excuses with all smiles
You are and will be my support staff
You love me for what I am and will love me till my story ends...
I wish you tons of happiness,,miles of sunshine,,zillions of blessings and long life!!
As I am everything coz of you and nothing without you..
Happy Mother's day: Amita Somani, Archana Maheshwari<3<3<3

I see (me in) You!

I see you coming to take me to heaven

On the wings of an angel we fly on the colour of seven
Red is strong and blue is less
The beauty of my Neverland is far beyond my abstract sketch
You wrap me warm and keep me so close
You dig me deep and your smile calms my soul
Your breath is familiar, like I know it since ever
You kissed my lips, like You hear my thoughts
A sudden gush, a little quiver,
Everything then seemed disparate and alluring
I walk on the ocean, I touch the clouds
I sit on the moon, I talk to my love
The sun looks white, I see stars in the black
I see me in you, your eyes darted this spark
I feel bliss, beauty and bounty
The drink of love makes me sing endlessly
The circle of sorrow is now broken
The hollowness is filled with passion
The lonesome soul has found her shadow
The dreary lost-ends are finally complete
No more rain, nothing in between me and you
I see you and I see (me in) you!

Tell me (I yearn for your LOVE)

Tell me when you hear my silence and when you hate my patience

Tell me when you taste my tears and when you smell my fear

Tell me when you see my dreams and when you speak 'what I mean'

Tell me when you know my walk and when you hold my fall

Now I am cold and I may not know

So tell me when you share your soul!

Music and Me

Music.......

I don't think I can ever define your power

One moment I'm confined, the other moment taking leap of faith in Ocean's dark.

You elate all senses, rejuvenate the soul

You have that narcotic effect, every Saturday I have a ball.

You conjure up bitter-sweet memories, You seep in love

You hit with such passion, that which rekindle hope.

You beckon happiness, You sprinkle love hues

Any caste or creed, any age group; a connection with You, all we choose.

You make me jovial, You even make me choke

You make me teary, even remind me of a joke.

Fire, illumination; You are their source

Rain, sunshine; history has it You could bring them both.

You speak a different language, You speak differently in times

First I'm in You, and then You enter in me like the best dose of wine.

Oh melody..we are old pals

With lingering feelings and I'm reminded of the first day of our bond

The ease with which I confided in You and how my secrets were all told

The warmth with which You shared the burden of my tender heart

And swore 'we will never part'!

Our union is forever coz You make me breathe through the muzzle of each emotion

You are both, the cause and source of my jubilation!!

Transient Trance

The "etched memories" tussle with my present (pretentious) gaiety

They* tell me I cannot flow past an obstacle without building an eddy.

They* say they are 'the keeper of my heart'

That they* wont let me suffer from 'a gall-dipped dart'!

I sit confused;I thought all my worries are now very far

But they* assert that the tears dry up only after imprinting scar.

I thought I reasoned

They* show that laughter might deceive but the real smile is same for all seasons!

The uproar of busting visions break me,

The cacophonies of sworn vows depress me.

All teary I ask them* to embrace me

And they* easily lull me into my Neverland, through another Cinderella story!

And now in that trance I am weaving 'all that could be'....

*memories

Some random thoughts that keep me engaged;)

If the one person who governs most of your decisions is in turn a follower of yours, it would be the scenario of forever peace.;)

You always have options, it's all about the choices that you make and since it's 'chosen', truth is, it is in the best interests of the 'selfish YOU' !!

3 things that always get recurring notice- a lie once told (an unfortunate outcome of good thinking), a mistake once committed (an undeserving outcome of goodness), a straight forward reply (an unlucky outcome of good deed). 3 things that always remain unnoticed-good deeds, goodness, good thinking!!

I wish..

I could tell you how many dreams I dream of you

Conscious or in a subconscious state

Among crowd, a peaceful escape

Into the many thoughts I think of you, night and day !!